I have a hard time sometimes, getting inspired to blog, or come up with catchy titles, but, while the stream of consiousness is flowing, (and wine, here I go!)

This picture is my mom's award given at my uncle's company, Traton, each year in her memory.  Today, 7 years ago, she passed away :( It is truly weird,that's the only way I can explain it, to have your #1 fear play out in real life! I won't go too much more into it, but, that was it, my #1 fear, mom (dad, or any family member) dying, and she did, and she hung on, fought hard, and long, and I miss her dearly.  Going to her grave is very spiritual for me and I feel she's still with me everyday in some way, shape, form, or reminder of her voice (telling what NOT to do!) haha. 

But, I needed to touch on that before I get to the other things accomplished (not much) today.

Finished a book, (Valerie Bertinelli's Losing It) Don't Laugh, for those of you who know me, this is a big accomplishment, I like articles in magazines, and the Bottom Line:)  Thus, my title: One day at a time, get it? :) Valerie Bertinelli, good book, mostly about Van Halen, and Jenny Craig, good combo, huh?

Took a nap. (again, don't laugh, I have trouble 'napping' I wish I didn't, but I feel like i'm missing out/wasting time) can't really 'relax' 1 thing I wish I could change about myself.

Woke up from nap at 5 (yay!) just in time for a glass or two of my favorite cheap wine: Turning Leaf Merlot.  I have been able to find it even cheaper than $6 now! At Total Wine in Kennesizzle of Barrett Pkwy! ($4) Superclassy. But, it tastes better than some of the more expensive ones I've had and I love it. So, there ya go.

Almost last, I only have 4 more episodes of The Hills to catch up on from LAST season (3) I believe, and have watched about 10 in the past 3 days.  Impressive, mindless trash, I know.  But, I feel a sense of accomplishment to have watched these on my computer and almost fully know what has happened with the whole cast now.  I was so out of the loop for so long, with work and all...  I'll have to admit, I'm so over them and their antics as a whole. But, I must continue tomorrow (after my dear friend Britt has a baby nameless boy tomorrow afternoon!)

And, last but not least, got to spend some time with my sweet aunt (mom's sister) Vicki and cousin William.  What a swimmer! That was fun...

To another summer day, cheers! 

 

 


Comments

Becca

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 21:13:27

My lovely Ruthie. I miss your mom, dearly, too. I think about her and Arthur quite a lot and our childhood memories. I can't believe we are in our 30's now, and stupid memories of us making videos or lying to sweet Art to do something we shouldn't have are so fresh in my memory. Sometimes I wonder why I couldn't remember anything important in school, but could recite "Parents Just Don't Understand" verbatim...I can't wait to see you in two days!!! :)

 

Garrett

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 19:42:05

just getting caught up on your blog, and love it! i feel like you're just next to me chatting.
i was blessed to know your momma. i loved her so much. she made me feel special when she spoke to me. and she had a gorgeous smile, her eyes were full of life.
and she loved you and you made her so proud with your kind and generous heart. love you to pieces!

 

sara

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 09:17:22

i am speechless to read about this... Mrs. Saundra was
a big influence in my life, and showed me what mother's
do - she was so devoted to you like no other mother i have seen. mine was too busy going through hell and couldnt contain it, but Saundra was a most beautiful southern belle no matter what she may have been going through on the inside, always. I loved her, and all the time we spent together...
just thought about her taking us to Woolworths at west county mall and singing along to "if you dont know me by now".
wow, where did time go.
thanks for sharing all of this....
love.....

 

Your Dad

Thu, 07 Aug 2008 12:27:22

All I can say, is your thoughts brought out in a heartfelt comment made me cry and remember the better times. I know you needed her a lot in trying times, and she guided you well. Love you both.

 



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